I slowly open the back door of my house and step outside, careful not to awaken any sleeping souls. As I step across the threshold into the spring night, a cool breeze caresses my face. The myriad stars are tiny points of light on the sky’s black canvas.
Another day is nearly over, written in the history book of my life, never to be opened again. It can and will be recalled, but never reopened, never relived, never improved. It is truly wonderful to pause and reflect, stretching my thoughts and dreams past the mere happenings of the day. This was only one of the thousands of days of my life, quite unremarkable from all the others. Yet, as I reflect on it I am glad it is over. Even as a twinge of anxiety about tomorrow slyly pinches me, I am grateful that I can say I have survived this day.
Ah night! Such a wonderful time. The world sleeps as I stand still in blissful solitude. Nighttime is truly my time. That’s when I’m free to be myself, left alone with no interruptions, able to ponder my existence. When others retire for the night, that’s when I come alive. Recognizing the opportunity for solitude, my mind awakens from its fog and I make the most of these times simply to think, read, or just sit. Alone at night is when I feel the most natural and comfortable. There is no one to interrupt my flow, no one to compete with my thoughts. My thoughts are mine alone.
As I stand on my deck and look out across the neighborhood at rows of dark houses, their occupants nestled in and slumbering away, I feel superior. I don’t need sleep at this particular moment. In a few minutes perhaps I will, but not now. I win, as it were.
In a few hours, when the sun is peeking above the horizon and showing itself for the first time that day, these same people will begin to stir, will renew the process of convening for the day. They will once again form little groups in offices and workplaces across the city, repeating their daily rituals. They will compete among themselves to put forth the newest and best ideas, in hopes of solving the problems of the world, and perhaps gain notoriety, fame, and ultimately riches.
But that is all for later. For now there is simply darkness and quiet, peace and bliss…